Have A Little Faith

Recently (and by recently I really mean the past 3 years), I've been struggling with feelings of hopelessness. At the ripe age of 21, I feel like I've already made enough mistakes to last an entire lifetime and really my mistakes have run the gambit category-wise. I've screwed up relationships, academic plans, job opportunities, etc. The list goes on and on. I want to believe I'm not the only person I know that feels like a total failure, to the point where it is debilitating and I can't bring myself to do anything other than lay in bed for hours, but I look around me and everyone I know seems to be making their way in the world with far less anxiety than I seem to have experienced.

I've taken some time to quietly ponder how this could have happened to me and I've realized that, while there were some outside influences causing me to make negative decisions and some people in my life that were not doing anything but "poisoning the water supply" as it were, most of my negative experiences have been due to uncontrollable feelings of fear and panic that have manifested themselves inside me. They are mind-made anxieties that have stopped me from progressing at a normal developmental pace. Now while this revelation is helpful as it has made me realize who my enemy is, how exactly do you combat the fears inside your own head?

The only solution I've come up with so far is to HAVE FAITH. Jeremiah 29:11 says, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" Right there in writing God is telling me that the feeling of hopelessness and like I have no worth in this world are not true. They're little lies that Satan and his little demon friends tell me to ensure that I stay this way, frozen in fear and uncertainty.

This doesn't only apply to me. It applies to you too, reader. I know it's hard to have faith. It's something that I truly struggle with too; it's a daily battle. If you ever feel lost and like there's no point in living or continuing on, just remember that God has a plan for you and it's one that will fill your life with purpose and joy.